Sunday, July 27, 2008

What's next?

(Photo by Rebecca)

Dragonflies symbolize transition. Friday when I went noodle bobbing, dragonflies circled us in the pool. Dragonflies appear to me regularly. I get it.

Yes, this is definitely a time of transition. Understanding that message, however, doesn't make clear the way forward. At the moment, I take the next step as it I am able.

For 25 years, I have been a psychotherapist. In that profession, one learns to keep oneself to oneself. Sessions are about the client. That's the way it needs to be.

Here I feel stuck as a writer. Spending the last quarter century not revealing myself, I now struggle with the practice of showing up and telling it like it is for me.

I don't know what that will look like. I just know it will be different. That's how it is when coming through a dark night...too dark to see where the next step takes me, but knowing that I have to put my foot down somewhere.

So that's what I'm going to do.



Rebecca said...

I don't know if you've seen any of the Indiana Jones movies but the 3rd one has such a metaphor for a leap of faith. He has to leap into the unknown and what he discovers is that there is solid ground under his feet.

I believe the same will be there for you.


Wanda said...

Sorry to take so long to respond to this. I have seen that Indiana Jones movie. It is one of my favorite scenes and I think of it often when I come upon these moments. Thanks for the reminder.