The reward for conformity is that everyone likes you but yourself.Rita Mae Brown
I've had an ongoing conversation with the Beloved. Well--not really a conversation as much as my railing and whining about the parts of my life that I am not happy about.
You see, here I am in middle age and I have all this potential that I haven't managed to do anything with. I get mad at myself and mad at the Beloved, too. I keep asking--wanting to know why I have skills and abilities and talents that I haven't found or made or had opportunity to express in this life time.
In the middle of my most recent "Why?" conversation, as clear as a bell I heard, "You don't have to."
"You don't have to."
Stopped. Me. Cold. I am trying to wrap my mind around that.
Hmph. I don't have to.
That changes everything.