Monday, January 09, 2012

i'm no saint...

It’s a gift to joyfully recognize and accept our own smallness and ordinariness. Then you are free with nothing to live up to, nothing to prove, and nothing to protect. Such freedom is my best description of Christian maturity, because once you know that your “I” has an inherent dignity and is objectively one with God, you can ironically be quite content with a small and ordinary “I.” No grandstanding is necessary. Any question of your own importance or value has already been resolved once and for all and forever. That is why “saints” (those who know!) are naturally humble without even trying to be humble.

Richard Rohr

...nor do I aspire to be one. Lately, I'm quite aware of my own smallness.

In my meditation today, I was having a conversation with the Masters. The message I received was to keep doing what I'm doing. At that point, I said, "So you are happy with everything I am doing in my life right now?"

"No, but it's good enough."

5 comments:

Susan O'Neil said...

As I was loading your page, I realized yours is the first website I check in the morning. I think what you're doing is more than good enough. Thank you.

BTW, I love all your quotes but whenever you have a Richard Rohr quote, I think, I should start reading his works. Any suggestions as to where to begin?

Wanda said...

Thanks, Susan. I appreciate your telling me that this is the first place you visit in the morning!

If you want to check out Richard Rohr's work, go to http://cacradicalgrace.org/. This is the site where I signed up for his daily meditations. I also read his blog.

As far as books are concerned, I have read his enneagram books, but not more of his recent offerings. I think the enneagram material is stellar.

Often when I am reading authors who are new to me, I find that I like their newer material better than older stuff, because when I find them I am resonating to their current evolution. So, maybe you would do well to start with his latest book. They may even have it at the library!

graceonline said...

Hmmm. You piqued my curiosity. Now I wonder what they would like to see you do differently? They're always quite supportive and loving, aren't they?

Wanda said...

Kate,

The point was/is that I tend to be quite perfectionistic and they were saying it's good enough. I asked what they wanted me to do different and they told me to just keep doing what I am doing.

In fact, I asked first what I should be doing and they said keep doing what you're doing. Then I asked if they were happy with everything I'm doing and that's when they said it's good enough.

Implicit in that for me is that I continue to look toward growth and improvement. And where I am now is good--good enough--maybe even perfect (if you know what I mean).

:)

graceonline said...

Wanda, I love that. I knew it had to be something like that--not being so hard on yourself, acknowledging that you and your work are exactly where you/it needs to be. Perfection. Just as you are. yes.