well...there you go.

One good thing that silence and waiting has taught me is that our lives are always usable by God. We need not always be effective, but only transparent and vulnerable. Then we are instruments, no matter what we do. Silence is the ability to trust that God is acting, teaching, and using me—even before I perform, or after my seeming failures. Silence is the necessary space around things that allows them to develop and flourish without my pushing.

Richard Rohr

It seems that suiting up and showing up is enough. I don't mean sitting on the bench playing games on one's phone...I mean, sitting on the bench being fully engaged in the game before you on the playing field--in case one gets called into active duty.