I thought that being faithful was about becoming someone other than who I was, in other words, and it was not until this project failed that I began to wonder if my human wholeness might be more useful to God than my exhausting goodness.
~ Barbara Brown Taylor ~
I was in junior high. We were on the school bus ride home. A boy I was interested in had a book about auto mechanics so I asked him about it.
"What's your book about? Pieces of cars?" Partly, I was trying to be amusing--partly, I was pretending to know less than I knew, because everyone knows that boys like girls who aren't as smart as they are. (Don't they?)
He laughed at me--mocked me. "Pieces of cars! They're car 'parts'!" I knew that.
His derision hurt me. And that was the last time I dumbed down. I am not good at pretending to be other than who I am (except when I am on stage playing a role--then I am pretty darn good, if I do say so myself).
If I can't pretend in order to fit in with people, how could I possibly be other than who I am with God?